Divison

What is a family
If it is divided strait down the middle,
Taking away the unity and
All of the things that define love.

That family is mine, divided with
Divorces and step-siblings,
Broken hearts and the
Incosistent thought of trust.

It's an equation.
Divide the biter parents,
Subtract the dissapearing brothers,
And add the unfamiliar faces where
My heart rests.

The answer:
One man's mistakes, and
One womans wisdom to notice
That some things will never change.

This is Your Life; Live it.

Silver streams of tears poured down your helpless face,
And I felt for you.

I felt the pain that your heart drenched itself in,
And the regret that your mind held deep within its grasp.
I told you it would be okay, and it will be.
All you need is time
To breathe, to cry,
To feel lifes deep revenge just to believe you're alive.

I told you
You only live once.
Take it day by day,
And if you notice something isn't right,
Get rid of it,
Because no matter how bad it hurts,
Or how long time takes to heal your wounds,
It will. The sun always rises, one way or another.




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Looking into a Child's Eyes

When I was a little girl, I noticed that macaroni and cheese was my absolute favorite food as long as it was smothered in ketchup. I love Lucy was the best show ever, and because of this, TV was my life. i noticed the dull shade of pink lipstick my grandma wore, and that my mom didn't wear any at all. When i let the dog out of the house, i got into trouble; I noticed this quite often. I also noticed when one single toy was misplaced in my room, implying that one of my brother's had been snooping around. i actually never noticed the difference between the toy-stealer's and myself. They were boys and i was a girl, so what? I didn't notice that school meant more than recess and the huge class trips to the school library. Life meant fun, no worries. I didn't care about what people thought. Waking up 10 minutes before the bus came in time to brush my hair and teeth was fine. Differences meant nothing; Blue eyes or brown eyes, fat or skinny, boy or girl. It didn't matter. Everyone was the same, and we still are, some of us just haven't realized it yet.

When I Was a Little Girl...

When I was a little girl, I realized that barbie was lame, and dolls were boring. I would much rather be riding on the back of my brother's '2003 Yamaha blaster'. I was too small to drive it, but being a passenger was much more exciting. No worries of stalling, or the person behind you clenching onto your sides, squeezing the life out of you.



Sleep was one of my last priorities, as well as sitting quietly in my rose-pink room playing with inanimate objects- as known as barbie. How pathetic? I absolutely hated my birthdays, because all I got was barbie jeeps and barbie houses and amphibian barbie who had braided hair. Braided hair. If you took it out, her hair was forever traumatized. Ridiculous.



I ended up with a personality of a boy, but with two older brothers you get that, along with all of the times you chase each other through the house for eating the last Nutty Bar. Barbies and dolls will never make you strong, mentally or physically, but having two older brothers will.

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Slowly, I walk, to the beat of the waves
As they crash into the forgiving ground.
My footsteps mark my every move
As I sink into the drenched sand.

The sun sits heavily on the ocean's skin of sparkles.
The breeze lifts my hair from my shoulders.
Looking down, I see the perfect impressions of my feet
Left behind to define an isolated trail.

I listen and hear nothing but the precious breeze
And an occasional seagull calling for its desire:
To be free, to fly, to run away.

This is no place for a runaway,
With the trails one can leave behind.





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Fishing for Love: Revised!!!

Fishing for Love

I woke up, got dressed, and rushed down the narrow stairs. I ran into the warm kitchen, illuminated by the sun.

Pancakes and sausage were sizzling in the brand new frying pan he bought for my mom. His harsh hands flipped them until they were left with a delicious golden color. He talked, and I laughed, but nothing he said was funny. It was more of a nervous, I-don’t-know-you laugh. He’d been gone for six months, and when you’re seven years old, six months is forever.

We got into his bread truck that smelled of rust and gasoline. We were headed for the Sussex County Fair Grounds for the annual youth fishing competition.

I hated fishing. The idea of catching a slimy, bitter fish on a hook was not appealing at all. But, I went anyway because I was spending time with my father, the person who I was unfamiliar with. The only reason I had to believe he was my father was because every one told me so. There was no goodnight kisses pressed gently upon my forehead, and never any “you’ll always be my little girl’s” spread around. On this day, for the FIRST TIME EVER, his breath smelled of hot dogs and mustard from an early lunch, not the alcohol which drenched his heart with loneliness.

I fished for half a day, catching one sunny after another. They seemed to decrease in size as the day went on. Each time I stared into the five-gallon pail leftover from a recent spackle job, I gazed at the tiny fish swimming in whirlpools, wondering how boring it must be.

But every fish I caught, he smiled at me. There wasn’t any anger; his voice was full of joy. For the first time, pride swept him off of his feet, glowing with love and ease.

“Pull it in now, nice and easy…almost here, almost here…you did it!”

I did it. I caught the fish that just might win the competition. Although winning didn’t matter to me, it mattered to him. It always did. He wanted faith to run through my veins, so he could feel that he finally did something right. He wanted me to be his little girl.

But, one day out of the seven years of my life could never make me adore him as much as he hoped. But, that day when he smiled at me, he won me over. For one day, I was his little girl because I understood that he was my father for more reasons than science and blood.
And that day, I won the competition. I got first place, and I won a fishing pole, similar to the one I already had, but I didn’t care about what prizes I got. I cared about the feeling that came over me every time I looked up at his wounded eyes and his assuring smile. He taught me that pain isn’t always a bad thing; sometimes you need to stay above water to know when to jump back in. I loved him for each minute of that day, for every word he said, and for all of the smiles, because after that, he had nothing left to give.

Fishing For Love

I woke up, got dressed, and rushed down the narrow, awkward stairs. I ran into the warmed kitchen, illuminated by the sun. Pancakes and sausage were sizzling in the brand new frying pan he bought for my mom. He talked, and I laughed, but nothing he said was funny. It was more of a nervous, I-don't-know-you laugh. He'd been gone for six months, and when you're seven years old, six months is forever.
We got into his bread truck that smelled of rust and dirty floors. We were headed for the Sussex County Fair Grounds for the annual youth fishing competition. I hatedfishing. The idea of catching a slimy, scaly fish on a hook was not appealing at all. But, I went anyway because I was going to spend time with my father, the person who I was unfamiliar with. The only reason I had to believe he was my father was because every one told me so. There was no tucking in or bedtime stories, and no "you'll always be my little girl's" spread around. On this day, for the FIRST TIME EVER, his breath smelled of hot dogs and mustard from an early lunch, not the alcohol which drenched his heart with loneliness.
I fished for half a day, catching one sunny after another. They seemed to decrease in size as the day went on. Each time I stared into the five-gallon pail leftover from a recent spackle job, I gazed at the tiny fish swimming in whirlpools, wondering how boring that must be. But every fish i caught, he smiled; he smiled at me. There wasn't any anger; it was happiness in his voice. For the first time, happiness swept him off of his feet, glowing with pride and ease.
"Pull it in now, nice and easy...almost here, almost here...you did it!" I did it. I caught the fish that just might win the competition. Although winning didn't matter to me, it mattered to him. It always did. he wanted me to win, so he could win me over; so I could be his little girl. One day out of the seven years of my life could never make me his little girl, but that day when he smiled at me he won me over for one day, because on THAT DAY he was my father for more reasons than science and blood tests.
And that day, I won the competition. I got first place, and I won a fishing pole, similar to the one I already had, but I didn't care about winning or the prizes. I cared about the feeling that came over me every time I looked at him. My father was smiling at me. He smiled the entire day, and he made me laugh. I lvoed him for that. I lovd him for not throwing a fit when i didn't catch a big fish, and I loved him for every single smile, because after that day, he had nothing left to give.

Bee's are like honey on Tuesday's.

Bee's are like honey on Tuesday's
I love sunshine,
Don't you?
--Chris.